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Breaking the Pattern

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Breaking the Pattern

It’s funny when I first met you I couldn’t stand you,

In fact come to think,
You made me sick…

Yet good all at the same time,

 

I think I was nine or maybe I was ten;
It’s been so long now I’m not sure when

 

Initially we would have to sneak around,

Down the back of an ally, bushes or trees,

Out of the house quietly,

Making sure my folks didn’t see,

 

Other people just wouldn’t understand
Why I had to be near you and hold you in my hand,

The tut’s the looks, the glaring stares,

But we didn’t care it was just me and you there,

 

We meet twice a week, then soon everyday ,

What can I say,

I needed you,

Which to others seemed absurd,

I heard all the lectures but ignored every word,

 

We used to be able to sit at tables and bars,

Dance the night away and then under the stars,

When I was with you I was confident and funny

Although at times we couldn’t meet due to lack of money

 

But I never stopped thinking of you,

No matter how hard I tried,

It was like a part of you was always with me on the inside

 

Wanting
Raging
Strangely craving

 

Till he moment we’d meet again and I’d never want it to end,

 

But I’m sad to say I’ve met another…

She’s about to be a mother

And it’s one or the other…

 

I’ve been with you as long as I can remember,

 

But that child in her belly is to be a new part of Me

A member of My Family,

And it’s a life I want to see,

 

Which saddens me to say… That just leaves no room for you and me

Although I may miss you, relapse when drunk and try to kiss you

 

It can never be what we had

I don’t want to see my child lose his father,

The same way I lost my Dad….

 

Past, Present, Future

Past – where I’ve been

Present – Where I am now

Future – Where I hope to be or where I see myself going

Where do you currently reside?

It’s a simple question, but take a second to think about it before you can answer honestly.

The “Past” is the places I’ve been, the people that came before me,

It can be said that the some total of your “experience” are building blocks of the man or woman that you are today. I would not be where I am at this very moment in time had i not experienced all the good and bad things that led me to this very point in time.

The Present is what is happening right now.

Right now this very second you are reading the words off of this page.

As I write them, so do you take them in and form your own opinion and understanding of what has been wrote.

But the present is not a lasting “thing” for lack of a better choice of words, as it is truly a state of being that you perceive in the essence of the “moment” before it becomes only but a memory and a part of your past.

The Future is forever changing and is that which is yet to come.

Everyday we make decisions or choices that will make an impact on the course that we take through life

“I won’t go to that party”

Had you had gone maybe you would have met the woman or man of your dreams, but this would be an outcome unlived

“I’ll take that job instead of this one”

 The people and experiences that you would have gained from taking either path would inevitably affect who you are to become and the wisdom and skill you would gain in your present life

But you can’t know what lies ahead with every outcome as you have to make a decision… “One or the other” and be able to live with what the future is to entail based on your current decision

When I asked above “which state are you currently living in” I asked you to pause for a reason.

Ideally we would strive to be living in a constant state of being i.e. the present, so that we are able to fully comprehend and take in all that is around us and truly experience life.

But such a state is hard to sustain fully and in my experience we often find ourselves slipping into the memories of the past or lost in the contemplation of what is yet to come.

The past is a great teacher but do not let yourself get trapped there.

We all experience both good and bad events as we grow into the people that we become, some of which leave scars and memories that we either strive to fight against and rebel or hope to live up to.

“I’m not going to end up like him or her”

May be a good motivation to give you the inner energy needed to succeed and achieve your goals,

But if you are running from the memory be careful that you don’t become what you have fought so hard to avoid in your quest to change your fate. To hold onto such hate will eventually consume you if you let it, rather than striving not to be him or her learn from his or her mistakes so that you can be the best version of you in the present.

You can say that similarly looking too far into the future can cause much harm if done in a way that makes you unable to see what is happening right in front of your eyes:

“I’m gonna be a millionaire”

“I’m gonna be a great dad and have a wonderful partner and kids”

Too few realise that although these may admirable goals to set oneself, there are a number of steps that we each have to walk until that “future goal becomes a present reality”

Be careful that you get so focused on the perfect ideal that the present joy and happiness will walk in and out of your life.

The real question you should be asking yourself after you have made your future aspirations is how am i going to achieve this thing?

Followed at once by taking “Action” in the “Present”

Learn from the Past, don’t look to deny or become trapped there

Learn to be Present, you only get one life and you will never again experience the events of today, make the most of it and be there in mind and body to experience it in all its beauty

Strive towards the future, don’t just live in the fantasy ask yourself honestly how you are to achieve such goals and take the necessary action to turn a dream into a reality

But the future is forever changing, no one’s fate is written in the stars

Have faith that you are where you are meant to be right now that’s all you need concern yourself with

 

I can’t change what’s already happened only learn from it and tomorrow hasn’t happened yet,

So why spend time worrying too much about it

Go out and Live and things will work out as there meant to. 🙂