Tag Archive: choice


Medication Pic

Medication
Requires dedication
A prescription, A description
Of what's wrong with me
Not what I choose to be
 
So long ago, I did not know which way to go
Stand still, take a pill
Yet I was still ill, I didn't know why

Hidden in a room, while I sat outside
No explanation for why my mum cried
To be a child is not a sin
But they would not let me in
 
Infections, detections, injections
Tests and more tests
But mother knows best
 
Pills that made me sick
 
Physically
Mentally 
Emotionally
 
What's wrong with me?
No one will say...
 
It's an answer locked away
Behind a key within a door 
Always the same door

The same seat
The same chair
The same people always there
 
With me waiting 
Anticipating
 
Next time they'll let me in
Explain the shingles on my skin
I finally get to hear what's behind the door 
 
That thing that makes my mother cry
Now I know why....
 
Medication

What's wrong with me?

Now I know...
 
Pills I was subscribed
When the truth I was denied
 
A diagnosis that was not my choice
That was the day I lost my voice....

It’s a simple question, Am I a People Pleaser or a Self Seeker?

Was that kind act really as selfless as I would like to make out and was I really doing it to please you? Or am I really looking to steal some guilty pleasure from helping you out?

Self seeking is described as people pleasing as we say that we can’t say “No” when asked to do a task that we may not wish to do and thus we are people pleasing.

You always have a choice!

To say “No” is a choice, it may be a hard choice to make but if you can say truthfully that it’s the right choice to make, look for the courage to say the words and live with your decision.

Self seeking is looking to steal pleasure from the act of helping others, I say I’m helping you because I’m trying to please you, when really all I am doing is feeding my own ego in the praise that I will receive from completing the task and in the story telling to others of my good deeds.

Many great deeds can be accomplished by people taking the time to help their fellow man, but a truly selfless act requires neither praise nor notoriety amongst one’s fellows. Try it; do one act to help somebody else and not be found out nor tell anyone of the deed and see if you can manage it, it’s not always easy.

Don’t hind behind the fear of doing what you know in your heart to be right, look for the courage to say no if need be.

Be honest about your motives, not to me or anyone else but to yourself and ask yourself honestly…

Am I a People Pleaser or am I really a Self Seeker?

Only you truly know the answer 🙂 x