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Redemption,

To make up for the mistakes of one’s past,

To be redeemed in the eyes of one fellows,

To prove that you have truly changed your ways,

We all live with the scars of past mistakes,

Every choice and decision has made me into the person I am today,

I would not be as so arrogant to say that I have lived a perfect life,

Or that the angel I can sometimes portray to the outside world would be an accurate account of my true nature,

The first step towards redemption is to take responsibility for ones actions,

The second step is to live with the consequences of those decisions and realise that although you may wish to atone and mend your ways,

For some the moment when you may be ready to atone and face your demons, may not be a time when they wish to forgive.

Trust once so freely given when lost, can be a hard thing to earn once more

But there comes a point where you have to let go,

Not forget!

But Let Go,

You can only offer so many apologise,

Do so many good deeds, which in the grand scheme of things lead you to believe that you’re truly changing and atoning for your past,

But if the person or persons whom which you wish to atone, are unable to see past the darkness of the person you once were,

Then it may be that all you can do is walk away….

At least for now,

No person however far you may feel you have fallen is not worth saving,

Most days hope can be your ally, in the darkest moments of your life,

That urge never to give up and un-explainable faith that things will get better,

To walk away is not to admit defeat or to shirk one’s responsibilities,

Sometimes the best thing you can do is nothing,

For to take further action would only cause more harm,

You may be at peace with your past,

But some scars run deep and leave marks no words so sweetly spoken could ever hope to heal.

I’m at peace with my past,

Though those around me may be unwilling to let go,

For me all that is left it to look towards my future,

Whether you be in my life or not,

I have admitted my faults and taken action towards setting things right,

The rest is up to you,

I tire of fighting to prove that I have changed and taking the brunt of past anger,

It is not by choice that I have walked away from parts of my life,

But to realise the there is little else I can do and that to stay would cause more harm than good,

Change does not come easy,

It is not a simple victory that can be won by a few good deeds or uttering but some simple words of apology,

All I can do is pray that I am truly a different man,

From whom I used to be,

And that those I love will come to see this in their own time…

I do this not only for you but for me also,

Redemption sought for the sake of another,

To solely regain one’s favour is not a truth in itself.

Regardless of what you may think of me,

I am who I am that’s all I can be,

And I pray one day you will finally see,

The lost and angry man you used to know,

Is not the true me… Xx

 

Choices

 

Choices

Decisions

Everyday each of us has to make a choice or a decision.

Some of the choices we make bare little weight on the overall bearing on the course we travel through in our lives 

Have little impact on the outward ripple that carries on the wave that touches the lives of those we love and care about or even those we make “think” we hate or may not be aware;

For I could only tell you the way I see things from my perspective, I can see it’s effects in and around me some are tangible proof, others are only but a feeling,

I would not be so arrogant as to presume that though we may have lived through the same event, I could ever fully comprehend what it is that you felt and experienced at that very moment in time.

Decisions that are great in magnitude are sometimes made so lightly that we can only see the desired outcome of first few waves, not the upcoming storm on the horizon.

“But how then do we make a choice?”

“What is it that we should consider?”

I could spend a life time in deep contemplation, pondering all outcomes and trying to envision this “important decision” from all sides as so to limit the damage of my inevitable impact on those around me.

But to do so would mean my own defeat for I would have missed what it is to be alive

We can acquire all the knowledge in the world learned through books and our fellows as we grow….

But “Wisdom” comes through experience, taking what I’ve learned in a text book or class room and putting it into real life application

“Wisdom” not only come from making the “right” choices in life but also from the “mistakes” that we make, with the key being that we are “willing” and able to “Learn” from each and every experience.

In the end that final leap involves and element of “Luck” or what some might call “faith” it name is not important

As “no outcome is ever 100%” there is always the possibility that things may go the opposite way from which you expect, despite what all the evidence may be telling you.

Take time to really consider how your actions will impact others, if we all did this honestly the world would be a better place, but believe me saying it is much “easier” than putting its application into “practice” and I am by no means a saint.

My best advice is to be “true to who you are” whatever that may be in every decision you make, do not spend to long pondering for you will see your life slip pass you by…

And “Learn!!” Sometimes the greatest lessons that we learn through good or bad choices only come to us when we are “willing and open to see the truth”

All the best to you today 🙂